I looked at the first page of this blog, the urge to pump all these entries into the second page got me writing this.

"Procrastination is the mother of failure", my maths teacher told us, trying to convince a bunch of students who just came back from a long break after spm.

"But, teacher...", I raised my arm, trying to get the class engaged in some sort of stupid conversation, anything but maths. "According to a Chinese proverb, failure is the mother of success, if procrastination is indeed the mother of failure, then shouldn't procrastination be the grandmother of success?"

As you might have guessed, laughters and jokes about who's the father followed.

So, I went on to live the rest of the year, almost with procrastination as my motto, with conscious or not. Later and tomorrow became the words that pop up in my head every time i try to do something.

[skipping the narration of my six-month worth of procrastinations]

Ends up, what you expect? Procrastination gave birth. Horrendous results and a really bad rep at just about everything. I took a huge step backward as a person.

It's gotta stop, and it gotta stop now. Or else things will never go right for me, especially the grandchild of Mister Procrastination.

p.s. i haven't do my homework, maybe i should do it, tomorrow...

My dad got dengue =( I hate seeing him looking old and weak. Please stay healthy dad.

I think i really need to update something. Thinking of it.

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Maybe I'm just living in my dream.

Certain things that life brings are too big and too hard to swallow.

The best part is, this is just the beginning.

I read novels, i watch movies, i play bball.

Try to get sucked into it.

But there is no escape, even though i knew it from the beginning.

I know my capabilities, i know what i can be.

Which sometimes just make me hesitates more.

zzz.... I gotta set my head straight and do things as my brain say,

not as my heart say.

Hopefully,

I'll be saying "take that" to life soon.

=)

[Just to clarify, not a love-related post, just what i'm thinking recently]